"Even if I got rid of all my problems, I'd just go out and get new ones..."

I need therapy. I really do.
1:24 p.m. on 2004-04-02

Damnit. I have a new crush. And he's forty.

In my defence, he doesn't look forty. And he has such a cute smile, and beautiful eyes, and if you squint, looks a little George-Clooney-ish.

Well, that could just be the hair...

Mat was presenting a documentary on Channel Four last night called "Happy Birthday Thalidomide" - and, fairly obviously, he himself is a child of the Thalidomide generation.

If you don't know what this is... forty years ago some bright doctors prescribed their pregnant patients the drug thalidomide, with the result that over 400 babies were born in Britain without arms or legs. The drug was banned, but it's recently making a comeback to treat lung cancer and rheumatoid arthritis (which is where I come in, lol!)

Mm. Matt Fraser... first fancied him when I saw him in a thalidomide show that must have been nearly ten years ago now. And then again when he was presenting a show on Channel Four which was basically a non-conventional look at the lives of disabled people, with plenty of humour. I don't remember much, but I remember thinking Matt was cute. Oh, and I remember a story about a fetish club which had a special 'disabled' night, where people got off on wheelchairs...

In last night's documentary... well, it was supposed to be examining thalidomide and its use in Brazil, where technically it's banned, but the people who have been born disabled due to their mother taking the drug, are struggling to get the pension that is owed to them.

In the end however it turned out more to be about how Matt felt about the situation. He visited the house of one young girl called Jacqueline, who had no arms and was also deaf. She had basically shut herself away from the entire world, and her family... well, her dad was a bastard, to put it bluntly. A drinking, selfish fucker who wouldn't come out to talk to Matt when I suspect Matt quite wanted to hit the guy.

*hugs Matt*

*studies the picture again* Cute cheekbones too. And a REALLY nice smile...

Bad Laura! Forty! Bad! Pick up that photo of Lij and study it until you learn better!

Listening to: "Plastic Jesus" - the Flaming Lips

Quote: "The Nazis couldn't have killed that many Jews because they didn't have enough petrol." BWHAHAHAHA! *wipes tears from eyes* Thank you, Mister Gibson Senior, for proving that stupidity only breeds stupidity. And thank you, The Independent, for promptly taking the piss out of them both.

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